Author: anoceanroars

…and i hate writing about myself. It feels awkward. Or i am a bit awkward and rather not write about it. i have not got a clue where to begin or end… …at this very moment i am a recent graduate of Colorado State University. i live in Longmont, Colorado, which i next to Boulder. Boulder is where all hipsters live. See, this crap is rather boring. i moved here from Budapest, Hungary four years ago, well, actually that is sort of a lie. i was living in Lyon, France one year before i moved to Colorado and before that Hungary. i like to travel or move. i keep moving… i have many interest besides moving: writing, watching, taking, listening and reading (stories, films, photographs, music and books).

J is for Joyous

Day 10: “J is for “Joyous“. When was the last time you ever felt joyous?” I feel that this one is too similar to excitement. I know that it is different, but I have trouble with words that mean happy things or exciting things or joyous things. Give me words of depression, sadness, death, loss, […]

I is for Invisible

Day 9: “I is for “Invisible.” Have you ever felt invisible?” I always feel invisible. As a child, I had to become invisible so I would not receive as much unwanted attention from my mother’s first husband. When people notice you, you are put into danger of their anger and violent tendencies. I am invisible […]

H is for Help

Day 8: “H is for “Help“. When was the last time when you felt like asking for help but you weren’t able to ask for it?” That happens often. I do not make enough money to get by month to month because I have some debts. I think I will be out of food some […]

G is for Grateful

Day 7: “G is for “Grateful.” What are you grateful for right now?” Why do I find it hard to find things to be grateful for in my life? My head is stuck in the past and that is a place of anger. I wish I could just be in the moments when they are […]

First Love

Short Story Saturday! Write a story of a first love. There were about fifteen of us in the dimly lit room. We were all sweaty, panting, and excited. I could see Tommy’s eyes shining with eagerness and his face glistening in sweat. Jenny was giggling with anticipation, but I never saw her sweat even after a […]

F is for Friendship

Day 6: “F is for “Friendship“. What makes a friendship tick?” If there was a topic that I wanted to avoid today it would be friendship. I don’t ship it. There are so many things that can wrong in a friendship, as with any relationship it takes two people with two different perspectives of seeing […]

E is for Excitement

Day 4: “E is for “Excitement“. When was the last time you ever got excited?” This is a hard one. I don’t feel excited for many things in my life. I have thought about it all day and finally remembered that I was super excited when I got into Colorado State University. It was hard […]

D is for Death

Day 4: “D is for “Death“. Write about your feelings about death.” Death! I have lived there my whole life. I almost died at birth because I was a blue baby. I stayed that way. Blue. My youngest memory is wishing I was dead or had never been born. I wear it like a chain […]

C is for Careful

Day 3: “C is for “Careful”. Was there ever a time when someone deliberately told you to be careful about another person, or a certain situation? What did you do? Did you follow the said person’s warnings or not?” Of course, I never listened to my mother. She was the queen of mistakes. She married […]

B is for Beautiful

Day 2: “B is for “Beautiful”. What do you consider “beautiful?” Write about it.” Beautiful. I find so many things beautiful in the broken world. The face of a man and woman. The laughter of a five year old which comes for no apparent reason. The sky in the morning and the evening. although I rarely […]